Past choices.

Ever wonder what would happen if you didn’t “move on” from someone or something? I sure do. I hold on to things, things with no reason to hold on to, I still hold on to it. It’s just me. I’m hopeless. I observed many of my friends doing the same thing to a certain extent and then moving on. I wonder if, after they decide to move on, do they actually look back and ask themselves what would’ve happened if they hadn’t moved on? I really do.
You see, I’m not one of those guys who can simply let go of things. I like to keep things, be it an old laptop, an old picture or even an old memory. It’s not that I’m incapable of letting things go, I can let things go, it’s just that if I do, it would torture me. The question would torture me, the big question. What if?
What if you didn’t let go? What if you held on to it? What would’ve happened if you did? I’ve let things go, I’ve moved on(tends to happen when you migrate to another country), it’s been 3 years and yet, I ask myself, “what would’ve happened if I did the opposite of what I did?”. It’s not torture anymore, it’s just natural curiosity. I mean, I’m sure it’s not just me, everyone wants to know if they made the right choice.
I’m here, with my head held high, looking towards the future while a little part of me still wanders in the past. I actually like it, to a certain extent. I like how I still get curious about my past choices, my past memories, my past moments with my loved one(s), still manages to surprise me.
There’s a famous saying; “Let go of the past, you don’t live there anymore”, it’s true, but is it completely, though? My past defines who I am, so I’d like to say that it isn’t true, what about you?

 

 

 

Procrastination.

Oh yes, we all know about this. We all know about the damage it does. Convincing ourselves that it’s “okay” and things will “get done”, and then realizing it’s all going downhill is exactly what happens to generally every human being. Be it a social gathering, be it a toast, or preparation for a test, procrastination happens to be the best of us.
I tried looking at a different perspective and, well, it’s still bad. There is literally no good side to this. Sure, it gives you the temporary illusion of comfort by prolonging but in the end, the event you were trying so hard to run away from will eventually come at your doorstep and you will have to face it, only this time, it would hit you harder.
The mind is a great cluster of cells, capable of great deals, including finding out a billion reasons to “not do” what needs to be done. Your mind will convince you that it’s okay to do it “tomorrow” or to do it “later” only to realize that it is really not okay. Procrastination can get you fired, can get you to fail a test, can get you to arrive late at your daughter’s birthday.
How does the world deal with this?
Will power. Yes, that is it. That is the solution to this. You can Google “10 ways to not procrastinate” and they will give you 10 narrow ways but in the end, it’s all about the will power. Your will power to get things done is all that we need, in the end.
I used to procrastinate, I still do(to an extent) and I know what it does to me. I regret many of the tasks I had to do but didn’t do. It’s not too late for you, or anyone, for that matter.
Get up and get your motivation and that will drive you to a better life with happier people.

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I know, procrastination is not really a major problem in our lives compared to others but it’s still something we need to control. Today it might not seem like a big deal, but feeding it will result in a major life crisis, say, 10 years from now. Ironical enough, I’m writing this while procrastinating, but hey, I have my motivation to do what needs to be done after I hit “Publish”, that’s for sure. Do you have the will power?

A strange feeling.

It’s surprising how we, human beings, forsake certain aspects only to realize how valuable it was when you’re on the verge of seeing it perish. Makes you question yourself and to value the littlest of things, even if it’s temporary. Say, a person is watching the last episode, it’s about to end, so you desperately latch onto every passing minute of the 20 minute video only to realize that time waits for no one. The little things as this can make you question your basic sense, makes you ask yourself, “Are you living the right way, are you content with it?”.  I know, I know, it’s absurd, “An episode, are you crazy?”, I get it, but, if you think about it, the emotions you experience when you’re watching something or doing something, it holds some value in your life and when its final days are approaching, you value it more because, subconsciously, you feel you haven’t paid as much attention as it deserves. I don’t know, I might be deluded but I feel this way. What about you?